Lonely in the Dark

Sometimes in life we experience feelings that we don't understand, this can be terrifying and can may even consume our thoughts. In this minefield of your own mind, one can become lost and often feel lonely, as you tread carefully and calculate every step, every possible way out of the almost certain death trap, you come to realise you are alone. 

The darkness surrounds you, you are enveloped in what was once a sanctuary, now turned prison. You are captive, prisoner and alone. Alone in your thoughts! You can slowly allow your eyes to open and filter in the light of the outside world, but how long will it last? Are you forever trapped in this unending turmoil?

You begin to understand, to see and find a way. You begin to navigate through it all, knowing that there is a glimpse of light, a better way, but it is a journey that you must take alone. No one can help you out of this all encompassing forest, entwined with brambles and gorse bushes... you have to do it, only you can face and encounter the shadows of the past, only you can remove the splinters or the thorns that lay waste to what was once you! 

You have to do it, you have to rise, you have to face the giant, the one you have run from, you have to pick up your feet and put one in front of the other and get moving. You have to LIVE. I mean really live. 

All the while, you can not just stomp through and create a path of your own, you have to be careful, you cannot just swipe your sword and move the way you want, no because society still dictates to you. Although you now realise that only you can carve your way out, you still cannot do it your way, you have to fit a certain mould... be and act a certain way so that you feel accepted, feel enough, feel like you are worthy of finding your way out of this colossal mess.

Or you can do it your way, you can move the way you want to, you can dance your way out of the woods, out of captivity and to complete freedom but if you do not conform, you will do it alone. You will dance alone, but at least you will have the freedom of being you and ultimately is this not the freedom you so desire?

For are you really captive? And if you are, who is your captor, who holds you prisoner? Who put in that dark and lonely place? YOU DID! You did, because you were afraid to be yourself, you were afraid to show your weakness, you were terrified of how society and even those close to you may see and perceive, who you truly are, so you tied yourself up in chains, and locked the inner most parts of you away for no one to see. You are lonely and in the dark.

Today, I say to you, get up, lift your eyes from the forest floor and look up, you are worth so much more than you even realise, you are a mother, a wife, a friend, a counsellor and colleague, somewhere, someone needs you to break those chains that hold you back, but most of all, you need to do it for you. You need to tell yourself over and over again and repeat the words until they become a truth in your heart. 'I AM WORTH IT!' I deserve freedom.

Do not stay in the dark and lonely recesses of your mind, rather, take the risk, even if it may at times mean more pain, more scars, more battle wounds as you dance your way through that forest, but dance, dance so that you can live, for in life every moment, every decision and every choice you make, frames who you are and who you will become, so be free, let your arms move in sync with your body, let your legs carry you where they want you to go, let your mind not be held captive but let your heart feel, let yourself love, for in loving you will find your freedom, the freedom of being you!